Got it!

I got the job!!!! My excitement is through the roof! Today the recruiter called and let me know they selected me! I'm again feeding the baby in bed before posting, so details soon. And the short story.

Until then--

Gorgeous day

Today was a stunningly glorious day for weather! We reached a record high for January 5--a whopping 60 degrees! Tony and I took Tristan on a walk around the neighborhood, then played with him on the playground where he swung for the first time and slid down the slide with daddy. He was all smiles! I can't believe he'll be 4 months on Sunday.

Today marks the one year anniversary of my dear friend Karilyn's death. I miss her greatly. When we were moving this last November I found a short piece I had written about one particularly great summer she and I had along with our friend Megan. I posted it on Facebook and dedicated the piece to her. Tomorrow I think I'll post it here as my entry. I would now, but I'm actually writing this post on my phone as I'm breast feeding Tristan to get him to go to sleep. I'm curious to see what the post looks like from here. I guess I'll see tomorrow.

Until then--

booooring

Got off work early today, and am pretty much spending the entire day playing The Sims 3 and playing with Tristan, aka the cutest baby alive.  The only other things on my mind today is this potential new job, and how I'm so nervous to see if I was selected, and even more nervous to BE selected.  I just want my baby boy to proud of me, and to succeed to be able to give him everything I never had.  I just worry I'll be working too much and filling that time with school to be able to give it all to him, but I can't pass up this opportunity.  This is going to be a ROUGH six months no matter what!

Keeping up with my resolution, I shall write tomorrow.

Until then--

SHIT!!!

I totally forgot to blog yesterday!  It was such a packed day and I pretty much passed out not considering my New Years resolution, so I now resolve to blog again later today.

Yesterday's interview went great!  I'm so confident in how it went, and I'll know by next Tuesday what the decision is.  So nervous!  I'm especially nervous because even if I get it, my life is going to be RIDIC busy.  60 hour work weeks, full time school, infant baby, but the money and career opportunity is one that I'll kick myself for not pursuing.  I just hope Tony is there for me and supports me when I'm barely home and busy once I'm here.

After the interview my friend (and Tristan's Godmother) Mikayla stopped by for a well needed visit.  I missed her!  I'll have to have her over more often.  She left pretty late, and we passed out after that!

Will write more later, but needed to at least try to keep up this resolution.

Until then--

Job interview tomorrow.

Can't sleep.

Oh, and Tristan is crying right now, because he too won't sleep.  I don't want to write too much about the job, because I don't want to jinx it--BUT--I really hope I get it.  I've been practicing my interview skills, and getting my employment documents ready.  Update tomorrow.

Until then--

New Year, New Beginnings

I have a New Year's Resolution.  A few of them actually.

1) I want to make it back to my pre-baby weight.  I want to be this girl again:

I can't believe I thought I was fat then.  I miss this body.

2) I want to be on track to buy a house, somewhere permanent for my son to live.  Our lease is up next December, I want to be done with the whole "lease" thing.

3) I want to blog every single day.  EVERY day.  Even if I only write one small paragraph, one random little musing, one rant, one tiny dose of happy, whatever is happening that day or on my mind for the day, I'm going to write about it.

4) I want to get a rough draft together for a poetry book.  I don't have stars in my eyes by any means that I think it will turn into something amazing, but what if it did?  I have so much writing from over the past ten years, so my goal this year is to just organize it into something cohesive.

5) I want to start standing up for myself.  When I feel like someone isn't treating me how they should, I'm going to speak up.  I'm tired of feeling like I have to tolerate so much crap, I'm better than that!

Short post, but hey, there is always tomorrow.

Until then--

Dream Interpretation

Wow I haven't written in awhile.  So my entry today is kind of abstract, I had a dream earlier this week that really stuck with me, so I looked up a lot of the things inside of the dream to determine what the hell it was about.  A lot of the symbols have eerily similar meanings.  So without divulging the dream step by step, here is my research, pasted together into one general message.  Enjoy.

To dream that you or somebody is on a slide indicates that you are experiencing some instability in your waking life. You have lost your grip on a situation or relationship.

To dream that you are sliding represents a loss of control. 

To dream that you are stuck represents a feeling of helplessness and not being able to escape from life's problems or stresses. You have lost confidence in yourself and in your ability to move ahead in your life. Your lack of clear goals and low self-esteem may be a common cause for such dreams.

To dream that you are swimming suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

To dream that you are swimming underwater suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your unconscious emotions.

To see a swimming pool in your dream symbolizes relaxation, calmness, luxury and ease. You need to take a break. Alternatively, a swimming pool suggests that you need to acknowledge and understand your feelings. It is time to dive in and deal with those emotions. You need to cleanse yourself and wash away past hurts. Consider the depth of the pool. If you were swimming on the deep end, then it means that those emotions are deeply seeded and may be harder to confront.. You will need to work through it, no more matter how difficult. If you are swimming on the shallow end, then it implies that you should be able to easily deal with your feelings.

To dream that you are on a playground indicates your desires to escape from your daily responsibilities. Perhaps you need to be more carefree. You need to acknowledge your talents. 

To dream that you are playing games indicates that you need to take a break from your daily life. It is time to relax. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes the spirit of competition and the rules you live by. Consider the type of game you are playing for additional significance.

To see or dream that you are a lifeguard means that you are keeping your emotions well guarded. Perhaps you are seeking some guidance and support while you carefully explore aspects of your unconscious.

To dream that you are protecting someone or something suggests that you are putting up an emotional wall or barrier between you and others around you. Consider who or what you are protecting for clues as to what aspect of your own self you are afraid of letting out and letting others know. 

To dream that you are lost suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. If you try to call for help, then it means that you are trying to reach out for support. You are looking for someone to lean on. Alternatively, being lost means that you are still adjusting to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.

To see your own family in your dream represents security, warmth and love.