Did I miss a day?

I totally missed a day! Yesterday I had my first assignment for the quarter to do. These last few classes are TOUGH! I'm glad I can spot the light at the end of the tunnel though.

Today I put in my two week notice at work. My last day is the 20th. I can't believe I worked there for 5 years! That's mad longevity.

Today we got the first snow of the season. Yeah, mid January. It wasn't much though, and it will probably melt in a couple days. Still have my fingers crossed for no snow winter!!

Beyonce's baby...

Super short blog again today, because its a) almost midnight, and b) I'm exhausted.  So here it is:

Blue Ivy??  Really?  Yes, I've heard the meaning behind it, but Blue Ivy??  Is there some rule when you become a celebrity that you have to give your kids ridiculous names or they kick you out or something?

Oops

Missed my midnight deadline again! I need to set an alarm or something.

Started Tristan on solids today. He LOVED it! Just rice cereal for now. My baby is growing up so fast. Wahh!

The Lake

There is no place quite as amazing or intriguing as the lake at night.  In the summer of sophomore year, the only important thing was to pull in experience and to touch, taste, feel, and be alive.  Lake Alvin was a mucky lake if you waited too long in the summer to visit.  During the high noon hour an annoyed, sweaty college student sat at the entrance of our Midwest paradise, demanding money for entrance.  This left daytime lake visits to Wall Lake, more populous and at a different end of town.  When the burning sun sank below the horizon and traded shifts with the gleaming lunar orb, the rules were changed in our youthful perception.  Lake Alvin warped into a secret retreat, more difficult to find in the black cloak of nightfall.  The lake-keeper had left, and the shore deserted enough to frolic in the cool sand and even cooler water.  The moon-lit diamonds glittered across the lake on the crystal clear nights.

We lived the most those nights--like when we lay close to shore half in the water, spouting out philosophy and salting the lake with tears, and bringing it to life with laughter.  There were no battles ahead, no worries behind, but only a drunk happiness life can gift wrap for you.  For one summer, love would live freely, not in the name of romance and unruly boys, but within the girls who understood your feminine confusion.  The end of those nights brought about storm weather and clouds--a looming dark forecast of a change in the weather.  We knew it wouldn't live in the cold dead winter, and eventually it died of old age.  If that was happiness tasted, it was certainly sweet.  But all else aside I'm dying to live the lake life we had with each other.  But the memory is a tangerine, as I know I'll never taste it again, an intangible moment.

Got it!

I got the job!!!! My excitement is through the roof! Today the recruiter called and let me know they selected me! I'm again feeding the baby in bed before posting, so details soon. And the short story.

Until then--

Gorgeous day

Today was a stunningly glorious day for weather! We reached a record high for January 5--a whopping 60 degrees! Tony and I took Tristan on a walk around the neighborhood, then played with him on the playground where he swung for the first time and slid down the slide with daddy. He was all smiles! I can't believe he'll be 4 months on Sunday.

Today marks the one year anniversary of my dear friend Karilyn's death. I miss her greatly. When we were moving this last November I found a short piece I had written about one particularly great summer she and I had along with our friend Megan. I posted it on Facebook and dedicated the piece to her. Tomorrow I think I'll post it here as my entry. I would now, but I'm actually writing this post on my phone as I'm breast feeding Tristan to get him to go to sleep. I'm curious to see what the post looks like from here. I guess I'll see tomorrow.

Until then--

booooring

Got off work early today, and am pretty much spending the entire day playing The Sims 3 and playing with Tristan, aka the cutest baby alive.  The only other things on my mind today is this potential new job, and how I'm so nervous to see if I was selected, and even more nervous to BE selected.  I just want my baby boy to proud of me, and to succeed to be able to give him everything I never had.  I just worry I'll be working too much and filling that time with school to be able to give it all to him, but I can't pass up this opportunity.  This is going to be a ROUGH six months no matter what!

Keeping up with my resolution, I shall write tomorrow.

Until then--

SHIT!!!

I totally forgot to blog yesterday!  It was such a packed day and I pretty much passed out not considering my New Years resolution, so I now resolve to blog again later today.

Yesterday's interview went great!  I'm so confident in how it went, and I'll know by next Tuesday what the decision is.  So nervous!  I'm especially nervous because even if I get it, my life is going to be RIDIC busy.  60 hour work weeks, full time school, infant baby, but the money and career opportunity is one that I'll kick myself for not pursuing.  I just hope Tony is there for me and supports me when I'm barely home and busy once I'm here.

After the interview my friend (and Tristan's Godmother) Mikayla stopped by for a well needed visit.  I missed her!  I'll have to have her over more often.  She left pretty late, and we passed out after that!

Will write more later, but needed to at least try to keep up this resolution.

Until then--

Job interview tomorrow.

Can't sleep.

Oh, and Tristan is crying right now, because he too won't sleep.  I don't want to write too much about the job, because I don't want to jinx it--BUT--I really hope I get it.  I've been practicing my interview skills, and getting my employment documents ready.  Update tomorrow.

Until then--

New Year, New Beginnings

I have a New Year's Resolution.  A few of them actually.

1) I want to make it back to my pre-baby weight.  I want to be this girl again:

I can't believe I thought I was fat then.  I miss this body.

2) I want to be on track to buy a house, somewhere permanent for my son to live.  Our lease is up next December, I want to be done with the whole "lease" thing.

3) I want to blog every single day.  EVERY day.  Even if I only write one small paragraph, one random little musing, one rant, one tiny dose of happy, whatever is happening that day or on my mind for the day, I'm going to write about it.

4) I want to get a rough draft together for a poetry book.  I don't have stars in my eyes by any means that I think it will turn into something amazing, but what if it did?  I have so much writing from over the past ten years, so my goal this year is to just organize it into something cohesive.

5) I want to start standing up for myself.  When I feel like someone isn't treating me how they should, I'm going to speak up.  I'm tired of feeling like I have to tolerate so much crap, I'm better than that!

Short post, but hey, there is always tomorrow.

Until then--